As a result of all of my "to-dos" I'm carrying stress around with me like an overloaded backpack.
I haven't been feeling well.
I've been running myself into the ground.
And my family has noticed.
Tonight my husband, Owen, took the kids out to do some Christmas shopping. I was looking forward to a night at home so I could get some work done. Baking. Christmas cards. Work. Dishes. More work.
Work, work and more work.
I was looking forward to a night of work?
Something is out of balance, I realized. But I felt like I had no choice. I HAD to work hard to get everything done on my to-do list for the evening. And as I hurried to get dinner and start the dishes and plan out my evening my son, Ryan, started writing something on a piece of paper.
"I have a list for you, Mom," he said when he was done.
And this is good.
Because I needed to make some positive changes but wasn't making them happen on my own.
Sometimes positive inspiration comes from a list written by a ten-year-old boy who loves you very much and knows what you need more than anything...
What was on the list?
It's a checklist that says:
Read 30 min.
After this you may do phone and dishes and work but cannot before done
(signed with a smily face)
I will admit, I looked at the list and thought "No way! Read for a whole 30 minutes? That's too long and I won't be getting any of my work done if I sit and read. And meditate? Okay maybe I can meditate for a few minutes but how about if I count that as rest so I can check two things off at once? Or what if I read while I eat dinner so I can do two things at once? And...and..."
In the end I followed orders and I did everything on my to-do list - one thing at a time.
And I feel a lot better now.
Thanks, buddy :)